The last week or so has been just food for me. I dont know if they are what most people would call binges but to me they were. My binges arent measured by amount of food as such, its more about when and how I eat, when im not hungry, when im not wanting anything, when I eat for the sake of eating just because I can, then when I keep going, that is what I class as a binge.
And its a lot of food throughout the whole day rather than all in one or two sittings. But yeh, so the last week at least I have been hitting 2500 calories at least. I started out with the best of intentions then it all goes to shit, and I eat so much I cant even keep up with the calories, I told myself I just needed one day to stop the cycle.
And yesterday was that day. I finally had a good day. I had just over 1300 calories, and although thats higher than I m comfortable with, I was happy with it. I very nearly blew it late last night but I didnt and im so glad because this morning I was down 1.4ibs from yesterday. I know it wasnt real weight, but it still felt nice to see.
This is me getting my shit together, I will get back to where I was, I have 9ibs to lose to get back to my lowest weight, which I havent seen in about a year. And 5ibs to get my lowest weight of this year.
Im really glad to be back blogging, even if no one reads it, its good to write it down I think.